we packed our bags and drove through chicago.

i think this happens to everybody.

sometimes you just get depressed for no reason, like something is stuck in your chest and can't come out.

apparently faith and grace both felt like that during the last few weeks. well today was my turn.

maybe i didn't get enough sleep. i was drowsy and sleepy and headache-y the whole day.

went for a walk in the botanic gardens with faith and grace during break cos they could tell i was feeling "oppressed". we walked on the bridge and talked. it was a good feeling to be under the sun.

but after that we had to rush back for contract lecture and my mood went down again, until i saw songping's koala bear :D :D

then, at the end of school, i saw chelsea's sms for an outing next week.

i am happy :)

the badd, depressing feeling is gone now. and i still have thursday to look forward to see everybody again.

haha i don't dislike school, if it means i can see everybody. it's better than staying at home.

yesterday night, carolyn accidentally deleted her history assignment which is due this coming tuesday :( :(

at times like this, you can really feel so frustrated that you start to cry.

erchi's eyes go really big when she cries

when we were young, everytime we saw each other crying we will start crying too. now we don't, but that achy feeling inside remains as strong as ever.

my whole night was wrecked. i didn't even feeling like doing my torts homework...jiechi immediately went to download all sorts of software which allows you to recover things you delete from your thumbdrive but the word file we recovered was corrupted. then we shifted over to my laptop to see if it made any difference to the corrupted file...

while erchi went to sleep in pure misery, jiechi and i pored over the stupid software programmes.

it was 3 in the morning when i couldn't take it anymore and went to sleep. jiechi was still awake and poring over my laptop. i ditched my homework.

jiechi is definitely more patient than me. 

it's cliched.

but i just want them to be always healthy and happy. i want them to never be sad, and get lots and lots of love. of course, i want that for my mummy too.

in fact, in place of my sisters, i would rather be the sad one for once. sometimes, i wish i could take a little of their unhappiness. i seem to be very lucky - i have them, mummy and good friends. i have never been in a class without them until we were all very old. they were "separated" young - jiechi in p3 and erchi in p5 - they had to struggle to adjust but i never had to.

there are other things - like how i can beg them to help me do some things just because i am the youngest. of course i get bullied sometimes, but then, most of these times, i don't really mind. i think, compared to them, i am a little spoilt. i am more selfish, and more lazy.

haha i think my sisters know too. they get very irritated when i don't listen to them.

anyway i wish for erchi to get at least at A in the history assignment and for jiechi to get at least an A in the group project she's doing too! i wish for my wishes to come true!

studying contract now, but i am reading a case (Krell v. Henry) which still makes me want to laugh :D

Professor Treital (Frustration and Force Majeure (Sweet & Maxwell, 2nd edn, 2004):
"...it was no part of the contractual purpose that mr henry should be able to look out of the window to watch the ordinary london traffic which continued to pass down pall mall on the 2 days in question."

!! hahaha i keep thinking of the lecturer's face in a building window peering down at the traffic...!!